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Posts tagged ‘grief’

Overcoming Grief

Today is September 11th. It marks the three year death anniversary of a great man, Nick Were Odoyo. His death had a profound impact on me, Angie Russell, his woman. I thought that I wouldn’t make it through such a dark time. Have you ever heard of people who die from a broken heart? I thought that was going to be me. Nothing was physically wrong with me but the will to live was gone. I went through all kinds of feelings of depression, anger, and sadness. I literally felt like my life was over without Nick. It took every ounce of strength I had just to make it through another day.
Fast forward to the present and I’m a much better person now. I have decided that will not let sadness rob Nick of the honor that’s due his name. That’s why I wrote the book, “Love of My Life: Memoirs of a Love Lost.” Through this book, I knew people would get the chance to see who Nick was and why I loved him so much. But I didn’t stop there. Plans are in the works to make the book that I wrote into a movie. Of course this will take a lot of work and a lot of patience, but I’m willing to see it through.
Having these things to do (writing the book and pursuing a movie) along with a lot of prayer and the strength of God, has gotten me through this time. So, I want to ask all of you something: Tell me about a time where you lost someone close to you and what you did or are doing to help heal the wound. It can be your lover, husband, mother, child, it doesn’t matter. How did you keep from being swallowed in grief? What can you say to others who are going through the same thing? I want to hear your stories.
Don’t be shy.
–Angie Russell

Healing For the Soul

This year’s trip to Africa was exactly what I needed.  There were so many emotions running through me: joy, sadness, anticipation…  My main goal was to go there to gain healing for my soul.  Since losing Nick I hadn’t been the same.  I was filled with grief, and rightly so– Nick was a great man– but I felt like I needed strength to move on in life; strength that I couldn’t get without going back to the motherland.

When I got there, I could feel the love in the atmosphere.  Seeing the faces of the people who have so closely become my family, made me smile beyond belief.  The hugs and the laughs kept coming, and my healing began.  One of the greatest parts about being there was that it was for a happy occasion; a wedding.  All of us gathering together celebrating is what really helped me because I was so concerned about how they were doing after I last saw them last year.  It was so good to see everyone dancing and cheering and to see with my own eyes that they are coping.  Yes, the memories of Nick will always linger, but at least I’m comforted knowing that they have the strength to make it through, and that strength brings joy.

I saw so much that I can’t even begin to explain, but everything that I saw, felt, heard, did, led to one thing: me knowing that I can make it without the love of my life, and that all will be well, especially with the help of a wonderful family.

Well, this story will continue in the days to come as I choose to honor Nick and be grateful for the time that we had together. We’ll see what will come of this.  Pain this bad doesn’t come for no reason;  I may not understand it, but at least I will do something with it.  I want to make Nick’s name great worldwide………