Executive Producer of Malkia Entertainment

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Overcoming Grief

Today is September 11th. It marks the three year death anniversary of a great man, Nick Were Odoyo. His death had a profound impact on me, Angie Russell, his woman. I thought that I wouldn’t make it through such a dark time. Have you ever heard of people who die from a broken heart? I thought that was going to be me. Nothing was physically wrong with me but the will to live was gone. I went through all kinds of feelings of depression, anger, and sadness. I literally felt like my life was over without Nick. It took every ounce of strength I had just to make it through another day.
Fast forward to the present and I’m a much better person now. I have decided that will not let sadness rob Nick of the honor that’s due his name. That’s why I wrote the book, “Love of My Life: Memoirs of a Love Lost.” Through this book, I knew people would get the chance to see who Nick was and why I loved him so much. But I didn’t stop there. Plans are in the works to make the book that I wrote into a movie. Of course this will take a lot of work and a lot of patience, but I’m willing to see it through.
Having these things to do (writing the book and pursuing a movie) along with a lot of prayer and the strength of God, has gotten me through this time. So, I want to ask all of you something: Tell me about a time where you lost someone close to you and what you did or are doing to help heal the wound. It can be your lover, husband, mother, child, it doesn’t matter. How did you keep from being swallowed in grief? What can you say to others who are going through the same thing? I want to hear your stories.
Don’t be shy.
–Angie Russell

The Love Day

Today is a day that people celebrate love and relationships. They’ll be dinners, gifts and sweet words shared. For many, this will be a day of joy. For some, this will be a day of sadness, thinking about the love they no longer have. Whether that loss is through death, a breakup, divorce or a strained relationship, the sadness is bound to be there.
Today I have a decision to make about how I choose to feel…
I had a wonderful man in my life; charming, handsome, kind, who’s no longer here. He died two and a half years ago in an accident at a soccer game. This man was the absolute love of my life. I had waited my whole life to fall in love and when I did, I fell hard and loved every moment of it. So when I learned Nick had passed away, quite naturally I was destroyed.
Fast forward to the Present:
So here we are on Valentines Day and I have to ask myself, “How are you going to feel?” This is a struggle for me. On one hand, I feel jealous of all those who have someone to love and share this day with. Yes, I know jealousy is wrong and I really am working on it, but this is a lingering emotion. I also feel cheated because I never got to spend a Valentines Day in the same room as Nick. We kept waiting and planning to see each other, until time ran out.
On the other hand, I get the sense that allowing these bad emotions to come out, will not bring out the best in me. Here’s what I mean: I could stay at home from work, lay on the couch and cry all day thinking about Nick. Would this honor him? I don’t think so. Self-loathing is not going to bring him back nor would it make me feel better. My second option would be to think about the good times that we had, be grateful that I had the chance to love a larger than life man, and then make the best of his memory.
So, here’s what I’m going to do: I’m going to remain positive today and develop a plan for my future. I’m going to push myself as hard as I can every day from here on out, to tell Nick’s and my story. Yes it will be hard, but I’ll force myself to make some good out of this, otherwise what will Nick’s legacy be? I don’t want him to die in vain.
So this is me, reaching to the top with all my might. I want the world to know about this great man, my man, who was famous in his own right. I will honor him; I won’t give up and drown myself in grief.
To all those who may be sad on this day, look inside yourself and make a decision on how you are going to live your life. Will your remain stuck in sadness forever or will you pull yourself up by the bootstraps and demand that you become a better person because of, AND, in spite of your pain? You can do it. I believe in you. Just take one step at a time.

Kickstarter Success

Kickstarter Success

In August I launched a project on Kickstarter.com to raise money to get my book, “Love of My Life: Memoirs of a Love Lost,” written as a screenplay for film. Kickstarter.com is a wonderful website that helps entrepreneurs get their projects to the masses, and gives the masses opportunity to be a part of the projects. My project was a huge success. Friends, family and fans showed their support in making pledges, some as much as $1,000, overall helping me to meet my $3,000 goal. We only had 30 days to do this and we pulled it off. Thank you to everyone that participated; it means the world to me. Getting my book made as a movie is my number one goal right now and to have people rally behind me, gave me the inspiration to keep moving forward.
Specifically, thank you to: David, Catrina, Reese, Carmen, Sylvia, Theresa, Dorothy, Dan, Tenille, Terry, Yvette and Yvonne. I could not have done this without you!
More information about the movie project will be given in the new year.
Merry Christmas everyone!

Why I Went to Africa and What I Learned

I went to Africa in 2008 as a business Trip. My then boss, asked me to travel to four different countries in Africa as a Production Assistant.  We were shooting a video for a company that hired us.  I really didn’t know what to expect.  I didn’t exactly like planes and I had to take two very long plane rides just to get there, so that was problem number one.  And, all I knew about Africa was what I had been shown on tv and those images weren’t very good.  I was in for a surprise, a good one.

Kenya was the first stop of the four countries.  I remember getting off the plane and feeling a sense that I was “home.”  I never felt anything like that before.  There was such an emotion of belonging.  We got settled into our hotel and I knew inside of me that I was there for a reason, I just didn’t know what the reason was.

We visited places in Kenya like Bungoma, Kisumu and Nairobi.  Nairobi had the worse street traffic I’ve ever saw in my entire life.  What is considered as dangerous to the unsuspecting American, is fairly normal car activity in Nairobi.  Nairobi is a very big city in Kenya and the life there reflects that.  What I enjoyed the most though, was traveling the back roads and seeing the lesser developed areas.  It’s something about the way the people lived that just spoke to me.  Their kindness and simplicity was beyond anything I’d ever seen in America.  There didn’t seem to be one ounce of arrogance or undue entitlement.

Of course the joy of meeting Nick changed my life forever but it was more than just him.  It was the stories and comraderie of the people; it was having tea in the middle of the day;  it was being treated with love and respect.  Africa is a wonderful place.

Overall I had a great time and when I got back to America I was a changed woman.  The imprint of Africa had been left on my soul in such a way that I longed to be there.

I know that my path in life will lead me back there several times and maybe…even permanently….